![]() So I’ve got another two weeks to work on my push ups, record my Disney album, do a photo shoot, finish the Christmas CD, and prep Hilary, my fabulous new administrative assistant, to help the world get along without me for the coming season. Were it not for professional development, I’m sure I couldn’t. I mean, when in my life again, could I justify such an indulgence. Now that I’ve adjusted to the shock of it, I’m Really excited about disconnecting myself with my phone and email for 10 weeks. I like being dorky, and not worrying about looking glamorous. Frankly the whole thing is pretty darn comical. What a unique opportunity for growth.Ī few times during training, I started giggling and couldn’t stop. Especially physically, I’ve never really gotten into the whole ‘thrill’ of working out, of pushing your body to its limit. I would like to know what it feels like to give the proverbial 110%. I’ve always had the feeling that I’m pretty good at giving 90% to everything I do. I’m terrible at reading maps and not so hot at coordination. I’m kind of a leader, I’m good at getting people to do stuff. ![]() I love new beginnings, learning the moves, thinking, interacting with people as diverse as New Yorkers are. Supposedly all Aquarians feel that they are totally unique and damn it I’m no exception! I feel somehow outside of time, a cosmic traveler in the year 2009. Water takes many shapes, ice and vapor, a muddy delta or a hot spring, but at the base it’s still the same. I used to feel that this changing in her and in myself represented a deficiency in character, but now that I’ve been through it a few times, I think that we are like water, having mass and substance, but translucent, magnifying and reflecting, nourishing and helping things grow. When I asked modern Allison what she thought of punk nihilistic Allison, she told me that she just laughs. That lasted on and off for a decade, and then she married a millionaire and now drives a sporty Mercedes. At 14 she was a member of the young republicans and a preppy dresser, by 16 she was an anti-nazi skinhead living on the street. I watched my older cousin, who shares my aquarian birthdate, go through the same metamorphoses. In 16 days, I’ll kiss freedom goodbye and change into uniform, the instrument through which I’ll transform myself yet again into another perhaps almost unrecognizable version of Alexis. I learned to march and salute, the difference between ‘parade rest’ and ‘at ease,’ how to navigate a topographical map, assess risk, and tell military time. I just came back from a pre-Basic Training. In this case, I’ve chosen a very unlikely Master. What better way to learn to cherish freedom, than to lay that freedom at the feet of another. “I drank of every vine, the last was like the first, I came across no wine so wonderful as Thirst.” –Edna St. In my favorite Indian restaurant, I sip roasted mate, chow down on carrot walnut cake, listen to sarangi And what better way to appreciate all of those mundane decadent glories than to take them suddenly away.
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